is this me or the cold?

i'm in the mood for randomness, oh yeah. i just ate the LAST cookie! wooohoooo. and.....i'm just about to have hot chocolate. imagine that in this weather, lol. i'm watching American Idol, which is waaayyyyyy exciting....and hilarious. but i don't like it when people aren't aware that their voices aren't that good. it makes me sad :(. i have a miniature cold, but that's OK. alright then. sorry this is way too lame. oh, and i'm looking for some new, good, music to listen to. any suggestions?

enduring

Falling, tripping, failing.
Blundering, slipping, wailing.
I maker mistakes, I fall on my face.
So why do you love me, why do you care?
You should have left me, long long ago.
Listen, do you hear?
I'm disappointing you...why not just go?
But you don't. But you won't.
You kiss my lips and whisper "I love you".
Could it be so, or are you anothers?
Mistakes are drowning me,
questions surround me,
I don't deserve you, I'm not at all worthy.

But please never go.
My life would be nothing: a speck in the wind.
I thank God...you are my enduring love.

learning

i was looking for love. i thought i had found it. i thought i had seriously found the real thing called love...but it was only in mortal eyes. then i realized my "love" was sunk. that day, i realized it was useless for me to spend my time trying to change myself, just to please a mere human (or mere idiot, lol). but then God came to me. God came to me and reminded me of a promise. as long as the sun rises, God will love me....no matter how much i screw up. and God's love is real, it's not a flight of fancy. it's a deep devotion, a passion, an unfathomable friendship between father and child, God and me. my life, from now on, will revolve around God. isn't God too cool?